Change

Change...some people see it as a good thing, some people see it as a scary thing, some people are probably immune to any feelings of anxiety associated with change and others are probably frightened stiff by the idea of change.

I fall somewhere in the middle of all that. 

There is change coming in the Sally household.  Mustang and I are changing up how our work/family balance looks.  Mustang is going to try out being a part-time stay-at-home dad...and I am going to go back to working full-time.  We still have a lot of details to work out, but as of November 7th I will be a full-time emplyee again.

Change.

Lots of Change.

So many questions run through my head...

• Am I going to hate it?
• Am I going to miss Buttercup an unbearable amount?
• Am I going to be jealous of Mustang's relationship with our daughter?
• Am I going to be jealous that Mustang 'succeeded' and I 'failed'?
• Why do I look at it as I 'failed'?
• What if it works out GREAT?
• What if Mustang is really good at being a part-time stay-at-home dad?
• What if being full-time doesn't help me feel 'caught up' at work?
• What if I never feel 'caught up' at work?
• What if I make mistakes and choose work over family too often?
• What if I never have any further opportunities to advance in my career?
• What if, what if, what if, am I, am I, am I...

There's a whole lot of "I" in that list above.  My big prayer right now is to take the focus off of ME and put it back on God's PLAN for our family!

So, here's to CHANGE!  Here's to things not working out the way YOU PLAN...but maybe HOPEFULLY working out in God's PLAN!
~The Woman With 4 First Names

Balance???

It has been a long week at work.  As I continue to strive to balance motherhood and my career aspirations I often find myself 'failing' at both.  I have a lack of focus at work as I stare at the blue-eyed beauty on my computer screen and on my cubicle 'walls' and I worry when what I deem as 'the good opportunities' go to my co-workers who are in the office every day of the week.  I struggle to fully enjoy my time at home with Buttercup wondering what 'fire' I will have to put out the next day at work that maybe wouldn't have escalated if I had been there and I worry about keeping up with my co-workers when I am in the office fewer days.


Heart Melter

So, the question remains in my mind at least - "Is it possible to balance career aspirations and family as I seek to be a light in God's kingdom?"

I choose to have faith that it is possible.  After all, with Him who created all things all things are possible.  It just might not look like the way I believe it should.  Therefore, tonight I also choose to give my dreams to God...my desire to be a career woman and show my daughter that you can be a mom and have a career, my desire to be an awesome mom and help my kid(s) learn and explore and know God, my desire to be an amazing wife to a hubby who works hard everyday in everything he does, my desire to be a friend to those whose path crosses mine...and ask Him to lead me.

~The Woman with 4 First Names